It was too easy until the last few weeks. I take stool softeners every night before bed. Normally it works fine. Recently, they have started failing me. In the last two weeks, the only thing that has helped, less a diet consisting of only apples, brocolli and cardboard cereal, is Starbucks.
I want my cheese. I need my cheese….and chocolate…..and peanut butter.
Until now I haven’t had a problem. After three days, I consider it a problem. This is going to be an expensive (but tasty) solution.
Last week, I found a certain crib on Target.com that I fell in love with. In the description, it said it can be found in stores. Awesome! I put in my zip code and it shows limited availability in about 5 stores near me.
I go to Target today to see it in person and absolutely loved it. It’s the Canton 4-in-1 Convertible Crib by Delta. Here’s a pic.
Of course they didn’t have one there we could buy and take home. Why would they? I’m not that lucky. They were nice enough to check the other stores to see if there was one in my city.
None. Not one store had one in stock I even had them check the two biggest cities closest to me and they were no-goes. They sold out in early June. OK now I’m pissed. Not only do they have it advertised on-line that it can be found in select stores, but these stores have it on display and you can’t buy it. For over a month they have been sold out, but still have it on disply? Are you kidding me? They are forcing you to pay another $90 in shipping. I was so mad and the manager couldn’t figure out why they still had it on display. She was very sorry or a good actress, not sure which.
So when we got home, I went back to searching and found this one. It’s a Simplicity Providence 4-in-1 Crib.
It got great reviews and they didn’t charge tax or shipping! Now we wait. It should be noted that this one did NOT come from Target.
We went into the ultrasound appointment already knowing it was a boy. We were already convinced. So much so, that we have really only talked about boy names.
When the tech moved into a certain position, I saw the 3 lines right away. Excitedly, I pointed to the monitor and asked the tech, “Are those what I think they are? Are those 3 lines?” My husband was lost. The tech said, “Yep, wow that was easy.” Then she got a great money shot.
I’m pretty sure this was right about the time it all became a reality to my husband. Before this, he hasn’t had any type of interaction. He finally got to see his little girl for the first time in real time. Pictures just don’t do it justice. He got to see her move, hiccup and the most important sound to us right now, he got to hear the heartbeat.
Here are some more pictures that they took. Fingers, toes and a nice profile shot.
and so very nervous at the same time. Excited to see Tiny again and nervous to find out exactly what is inside me. Tomorrow is the big day. This will be my husband’s first viewing. Maybe I’m nervous to see his reaction. I don’t know. It is all still very overwhelming.
I catch myself looking at the big stuff (stroller, pack and play, car seats, etc…) and end up just closing the window because thinking about getting gender neutral stuff isn’t working.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
20w3d
I really need to go back to using my camera instead of my phone for these pics. Terrible quality.
My husband’s grandmother passed away last month. We went to the storage unit yesterday to look at some of the things she still had in her last apartment. My MIL really wanted us to have these two cherry wood dressers.
I’m still in shock because it all happened so fast. He called me yesterday around noon to meet him at the unit at 6pm. When I got home from pool, this is how I found the nursery.
This has just saved us hundreds of dollars in nursery furniture that wouldn’t even come close to this quality.
So far, I’ve found that baby likes all kinds of juice. I will down a glass of juice just I can feel it kick.
kicks: apple, grape, cranberry, orange and apple white grape
no kicks: v8 fusion
he says.
He thinks it’s not fair that I get to feel the baby kick and he doesn’t. Sure pal, that isn’t the only thing that I get to experience. If you want to feel the kicks, then you should also get to feel everything, mkay?
Don’t make me make you a list. I’ll do it. I double dog dare you to say that to me again.
Went to the doc again yesterday. They did an ultrasound to measure the cervix and make sure the placenta is okay. Cervix is 3.5cm and closed. Placenta is fine as well.
While the tech had me in the room, she did a heart rate check on the sleeping baby and it was 147. She did let me take a peak since s/he had it’s back to me. The big ultrasound is on 7/7 and since the man wasn’t there, I didn’t want to acidentally catch a glimpse.
The doc still can’t explain why my cervix sucks ass and bleeds all the time, but she did say everything looks great. She put me on pelvic rest and minimal activity until I can go 3 days in a row without bleeding or spotting. Yah right. We’ll see about that.
19w
The lady I spoke of below (did the uninvited tummy rub) knows my doctor. She also knows my previous doctor who got booted from the practice. Nice. She has nothing but good words for my current doc and understands why I’m glad the previous doc is gone.
I work with this very nice lady. In fact, I went to grade school with her daughter (this was discovered Monday). It turns out, she is an ex-L&D nurse. I guess that’s why she was so excited to hear about my pregnancy.
but that’s my belly and my personal space.
It’s a good thing I like this lady, cause if not, she would have gotten a totally different reaction out of me.
I went to the breakroom to get some ice. The container was empty. I don’t like it when the container is empty. Someone mentioned that there was some in the conference room. So I went over there. There were people in line to grab sandwiches, brownies, fruit and drinks. Free food is the best food.
Not too long after I walk in, this lady says “let the pregnant one get some fruit”. There was also a pregnant woman in front of me. Of course she told the lady that I was pg too. That’s when she came over and felt my (still-not-so-noticeable) belly and squeeeeeed in joy.
Since when is it ok to do this? Especially if there’s not much there to feel. I can understand wanting to feel it if the pg woman says “Want to feel the baby kick?”, but not at my stage.
Oh, and the ice bucket was empty. I did get a brownie and some fruit out of the deal.
Cramping and spotting started yesterday. Google scared the bejeezles out of me, so I called today and they had me come in. My regular doc was in delivery so I saw one of her partners. This one is about to pop anyday now and she was also headed to the hospital to make a delivery, but stayed to see me.
She let me hear the heartbeat for just a second. Long enough to let me know everything was fine, but too short for my liking. I could listen to that noise all day.
Then she wanted me to get an US to check the placenta and measure my cervix, but wanted me to wait there for another 1.5 hours to get the US. Normally, I would have, but she didn’t seem concerned at all and I needed to get back to work. She insisted that I have one this week to measure the cervix. That will be on Thursday.
The spotting turned from pink to brown between yesterday and today. Turns out I have a little yeast in my cervical fluid and she wants to treat that with Terazol. I’m so sick of these cervical issues scaring the crap out of me. The official word is that I have a “delicate cervix”.
It still doesn’t explain the cramping. She thinks I’m constipated. I say I’m not since I had two good ones yesterday.
for the first time on Monday night. It felt like a little bubble popping. So I immediately put my hand down there and felt it again. It was so awesome. I may have felt this in the last few weeks but couldn’t be sure. Now I’m positive.
There are three of us at work that are pregnant. We are each five weeks apart. It’s nice knowing I’m not the only one going to get big. I often wonder if there is anyone here going through infertility that hate us right now.
It’s getting harder to twist and bend.
18w
It’s a small one, but it’s there.
Had my monthly check-up today. The doc is very pleased with the progress. My uterus has moved up. There was a lot of movement heard during the doppler. She even said she could feel it moving around while holding the wand. ::cries:: I still haven’t felt anything that I can definitely say was baby.
In the last week, I’ve had to unbutton certain pants and shorts in order to be comfortable while sitting. Standing and walking are still no problem. It’s only a matter of time now. Last week, I bought some maternity capris to last me throught the summer.
Dropped another pound. Next appointment is in 4 weeks. Big ultrasound is in 5 weeks. OMG!
15w5d
Seriously, it takes 10 seconds to change your password and you get 14 freaking days to do it. How hard is it? Apparently it’s rocket science to my users.
I get calls all day long from those that “don’t have time to mess with that”. Well, for your information, I don’t have time for calls like this from people like you.
I especially love the voicemails left on my work phone on Friday afternoons at 5:05pm crying because they have forgotten their password or let it expire and are desperate to get into their e-mail. On Monday morning, depending on who it is, I may or may not make them wait longer.
Bottom line – be nice to your IT department.
I still can’t believe I’m pregnant.
I still wouldn’t believe it if it weren’t for the ultrasounds and dopplers.
I still don’t have a pooch. That’s OK, I know it will show sooner or later.
At first, I complained a lot. The back pain, boob pain, nausea, heartburn, constipation and constant trips to the bathroom during the night were super annoying. Now, I welcome them with open arms as those are the only things keeping me aware of this pregnancy.
So far, I’m still down in the weight department. Last check was negative 4 pounds. The doc isn’t worried, so neither am I.
14w2d
that we will find out the sex. However, we won’t be telling anyone. It will be our little secret. We also decided to come up with a gender neutral name to call it until s/he is born.
This is going to be really hard.
::off to find a name::
13w4d
The tech tried and tried to get some measurements on the little one, but it just didn’t want to cooperate very much. She did get two out of three shots that she needed.
S/he was asleep when we first saw it. After a few minutes it woke up and it wouldn’t be still at all. The tech was able to get a few good shots for me to bring home. All in all, I spent about 20 minutes watching my baby this morning. What a way to start the day.
12w6d
13w0d
I’m not an attention whore IRL. I’m the one that wouldn’t tell anyone I was pregnant until I absolutely had to. The only day I wanted to ever be the center of attention was my wedding day.
Today was one of those days that you see extended family for the first time since they heard the news (which they didn’t hear from us). We went to a graduation party and most of the attention went to me. I didn’t like that at all and felt bad about it.
I’m going to invest in a t-shirt that says the following:
Yes we are going to find out what the sex is.
The name will be kept a secret.
We are due on November 20.
I feel fine.
12w1d
That’s today’s heart rate of baby. I love that sound. Today was my regular monthly checkup. She says everything looks good. We scheduled the NT scan for next Thursday. I can’t wait to see the little one again.
11w5d
Yep, that’s what is the most comfortable now. Back in 2002 I had a breast reduction. I bought some pull over bras that held the bandages in place, but weren’t tight or supportive at all. Now, my regular bras hurt. I must go shopping. Until then I’m wearing my pull overs under my regular bras. OMG, heaven. Seriously. Had I known they would feel like this, I would have done this 6 weeks ago.
I woke up bleeding and passed 2 big clots. So I called the doc’s office. “Karen” told me that they close at 11:30 on Fridays and they didn’t have any openings for an u/s.
She called me back about a half hour later and told me to come in for a fetal heart check. My doc wasn’t there today so I got one of her partners. She ended up checking my uterus from the outside and said it was nice and big. What? Nice and big? I’ve searched everywhere down there for something different and can’t feel a thing. I guess it would be nice to be trained to know what you were feeling for.
Anyway, the heartbeat was wooshing away at 150 bpm. That was the first time I heard it. I saw it last time I was there. It was so awesome. She said she even heard a little movement in there. I think I cried. The doc doesn’t seem concerned and has no clue why I’m bleeding or where the clots came from. As of right now, the bleeding is gone.
Next regularly scheduled appt is next Wednesday.
-3 pounds from last appointment.
11w 0d
I made it to 10 weeks. I’m thrilled. Looking back when I was 4 weeks I never thought I would make it this far. Nothing really new to report. the bloat has gone away. I’m not as nauseous as I was, nor as hungry.
10w2d
Went very well yesterday. I love the new doc. She told me they got rid of my old one. Woot! She was a bitch.
Anywho, our little blueberry is doing great. I saw the heart flickering on the screen. Such an awesome sight to see.
Apparently all that bleeding had nothing to do with any of my uterine contents. It’s all coming from the cervix. She doesn’t seem too concerned anymore.
I couldn’t believe how much blood they took out of me yesterday. And the lab tech’s bandaids have some sort of duct tape adhesive in them. Ouch! We go back in a month to hear the heartbeat and do a checkup.
Some pics from yesterday (7w4d):
I’ve heard that your dreams would be wacky, but come on. Lately I’ve only dreamt about scary/sad things. Fire, kidnapping and dying to name a few.
This morning I remember having a dream about fire. Then I woke up, went to pee and fell back to sleep. The next dream was me describing my previous dream to my husband in the place where the fire was.
In a dream I had the other day, me and a friend drove to a pool tournament in Indianapolis. When we got out of the car, we were kidnapped and trapped during the tournament because we were a threat to his friends. I’ve had this dream a few times.
Whatever happened to jumping around with Strawberry Shortcake atop Smurf houses on the moon? Those were fun dreams.
I remember posting this a while ago. I guess I’m really not as crazy as I thought.
has officially arrived with a vengeance. It’s a good thing I’m on vacation and it’s raining all day today. As soon as I get up, all I can think about is going back to bed.
Speaking of bed, the bed I have sucks. My back is killing me and I’m pretty sure the bed isn’t helping. I’ve almost been on the verge of tears at times. So I called the doc for recommendations. She said it could be gas. Seriously, gas way up there in the middle of my back below the shoulder blades? Yes. Oh my God. I knew I should have brought that heating pad.
6w5d
They did an u/s today. We saw a yolk sac. Not really anything else to see. I got to see my ovaries too. The left one is the one that released the egg that got fertilized. Good job lefty!
Also, my beta from Friday is 5719. Doubled from Wednesday. That all looks good. No bleeding or spotting since Friday.
Best news is that my doc wasn’t in today, so I saw a different one. I love her. She’s very sweet. She’s ordering me some progesterone for safety measures. I’ve been using a friend’s script. I told her this and she said she was actually going to suggest those to me. The other doc wouldn’t even consider it. Stupid woman.
I return for another u/s on April 8.
I’m bored to tears. Yesterday, the doc put me on bed and pelvic rest. I’m not a stay-in-bed-all-day kind of person. Of course I don’t mind when it’s rainy and gloomy outside, but when I’m ordered to do so, I don’t like it. There are so many things I need to do because we are going on vacation next weekend. Oh well.
5w2d
It has doubled. But we are still being guarded since there has been some clots and bleeding. I’m waiting on the doc to call and tell me what’s next.
Thanks to all for the support.
Stats:
~17 dpo beta: 1121
~19 dpo beta: 2504
Beta from yesterday. I think I was around 17 DPO. I go back tomorrow for another blood draw and will find out Thursday.
Still bleeding with some very small clots/tissue this morning.
I’m pregnant. What I thought was my period the last few days has not been a period. This morning, I woke up with very sore boobs and abs. We all know I haven’t been doing any crunches lately.
So at 5:30am, I piac, did a $1 cheapy test and stuck it in a drawer. Then at 9am, I got up to pee again, and to my surprise, there was a very dark 2nd line. So I took a FRER and the 2nd line came up right away.
OMG!!!
That’s what my body said to me. Monday – blood, Tuesday – nada, today is the official start of cycle 23.
On the upside, FF gave me 5 free days of VIP. WoofreakingHoo – dude, I’m on my period. Give it to me when I’m fertile pigeonpieceofblowfishshit.
grrrrrrrrr
Hell, I don’t know what cycle I’m on anymore. I’d have to look at my chart. My baby making factory sucks.
Since my health insurance sucks ass and his doesn’t suck ass, I’m going to get on his during open enrollment later on this year. We made the decision to just keep on keeping on and then see what happens until then.
After conversations of “let’s get this and I want that”, we thought we would rather make some long overdue purchases rather than spending money OOP to pay for treatments and procedures.
Today, a Dyson.
Next week, maybe some cabinets for the laundry room. Woot!
goodbye HD widescreen flat panel wall mounted TV.
goodbye pool table.
goodbye bar.
goodbye Wii.
The full flight of steps is off limits to the baby girl, so we brought the living room back upstairs. 2 months. It’s amazing how 4 legs can change your life.
Ok fine, she wants a whole house full of kids. I get that. The woman already has plenty of them. Half of them are disabled, they all live with her parents and she’s on food stamps. Apparently her life wasn’t hectic enough. What eats my skin is that she had fertilliy treatments to have more children.
Something is very very wrong here. How did she pay for that? Surely, insurance wouldn’t flip the bill for this? :: screams ::
p.s. Everytime I hear/read/watch something about this idiot I think of this:
is coming out in May. I’m irrationally excited about this. For those that don’t know, it’s the second series in the Da Vinci Code. I enjoyed Angels and Demons more than the first one. Woot!
This month it will be three years since I went off birth control. Not once have I ever seen a positive hpt. That’s all sorts of crap with a side of depression.
So I’ve had fertile cm basically since FP finished. I’ve never had a +opk, fertile cm and HSO cervix all on the same day. Ever.
I really think the Metformin is helping my cycles. Not that they were bad before, but sometimes the charts had conflicting fertile signs.
Today – we come together as one big fat happy baby making machine. Now where’s my husband. Oh that’s right, he had to go to work in this crazy weather.
I really really really hope we can make a “Winter Storm” baby.
When I came off of bc, we thought for sure I would get pg right away. We even started talking to the imaginary growing fruit of our loins and named it TP (both our first initials). This was long before I virtually met some amazing people.
Conincidence? I think not.
When my friend found an unused board to chitchat on and get away from the monotony that drove me batty, I decided her username was too long to type and renamed her TP.
I should start bottling this up and selling it. I’d be rich. Stupid addicting fartbars. If you know what I’m referring to, I haven’t given them up like I had planned on. Sigh. They are just so yummy.
I could kill my husband for getting me these stupid pills that you need an army to remove from the individual foil packaging.
at the RE’s office. I can’t remember the last time I cried over this IF crap. Oddly enough it was (opposed to those who cry to get a script for clomid) because I don’t want to take it.
She seems to think that since I’ve never had an STD or Endo, my tubes are fine. And the prog test last week shows that I have a weak ovulation. She really wants me to do 3 rounds of 50 mg clomid with prog testing. No thanks. I’ll pass until after we know for sure my tubes aren’t blocked.
I have contacted my insurance company to see what is and isn’t covered for IF testing/treatment/procedures since they list nothing on their website.
I hate insurance.
It would be about $750 to do an hsg if my insurance doesn’t cover it. We went ahead and scheduled for it next week in case they will pay for it. If not, we’re not getting it done. Which also means no clomid.
So I guess that’s where we are. I do like that the Metformin somewhat regulated my last cycle. I O’d on CD 15! That makes me happy.
Whenever I go to Google something, I have to see what comes up after typing in the first word. Just now, I was typing “how to make beef jerky”. Here’s what comes up in the search bar when just the word how typed in.
The letter “R”
mmm RP.
Not flowing, but enough to think WTF? At first (two days ago) it was just a tiny bit. Enough to think it could be ovulation spotting. That’s not totally uncommon for me. I’ve noticed it a few times in the last two years.
Yesterday, there was more.
Today, there’s even more, but still not enough to call it flow. It’s really pissing me off. So I went to Google and found some interesting things.
Definition of O spotting: The trace amount of blood that may appear due to the rupture of the follicle will not be red (like menstrual blood), but will rather exhibit a brownish or pinkish color. For example, you may see just a faint streak of pinkish blood intermingled with cervical fluids during your daily CM check. Also, some sites say O spotting is a secondary fertility sign.
Definition of O bleeding: Menstrual bleeding happens during the second drop in estrogen. In some women, though, the first estrogen drop appears to trigger bleeding, too. This mid-cycle bleeding is usually light and brief.
Other possible causes of mid-cycle spotting include:
I’m supposed to go get blood drawn for a progesterone test on January 7. Assuming I O’d no later than cd 15, I’ll be 5 dpo.
Right now, there is still no confirmed O and a gradual rise. I used to get awesome temp rises that were never doubted as 1 dpo. *sigh.
I’d do anything to be back on cycle one and dumb as a rock.
Callie tagged me. Here are the rules:
1. Choose the 4th picture folder on your computer.
2. Choose the 4th picture.
3. Explain picture
4. Tag 4 other people
I don’t have 4 picture folders on this machine. But this is the 4th picture. It’s Downtown Louisville the day after Thanksgiving when they do “Light Up Louisville”.
I’m gonna tag:
Jennifer L.
Jessica F.
Staci R.
Jacki
I know I got sick on you a few weeks ago and that can delay the baseball game you have going on down there. But come on. This is ridiculous.
I have a feeling your game was delayed a little bit longer than expected and we probably have no chance of a win. I have team spirit and know we can come to some sort of compromise here. Play ball or forfeit. One or the other.
Thanks
